ironic.
It is strangely ironic that perhaps the only way to know if you are getting closer to God are direct confrontations with our sins. That it is only in the presence of a holy and pure God that we are truly called out on our junk and general crap. It’s ironic, because incidentally, that’s when we are the most unwilling to seek Him, so ashamed and guilty are we to be in His presence that we shy away from the throne.
Yet it is exactly in those moments that we need to run towards Him and embrace that gift of salvation. It is precisely by directly looking at the gravity of our sins that our hearts are convicted by them. It is in their light that we truly see ourselves as the miserable and sinful beings that we are.
The question is, then: Why is it so hard for my heart to remain convicted?
